So the journalling prompt this week is "What I'm Good At", well if you don't want to read a downer post - skip this one. I generally like to keep my posts positive and my thoughts to myself, but I need to get this one out of my head.
What am I good at? Failing, yep I feel like I fail at everything.
Today I failed one of my modules I'm studying- why? Because I admit I missed a couple of points on one of the assignments, no biggy. The big reason I failed, and why I will fail every other module I hand in is - because I'm on maternity leave. Yep, the company I work for have decided that I can't pass because I'm on maternity leave. Never mind the fact that everything I do is signed off by my director as competent, and I prove every day that I work that I can do this stuff - well it's not good enough, which means I can't finish my Diploma, which means I personally want to give up and walk away. It's not worth the stress and worry. I'll just go back to being an assistant, and enjoy my job without all the paperwork.
I feel like I fail at so many things, being a good mother, wife, friend. I hate studying and try my best to get things right, but right now I feel like I'm too stupid to continue. I was never that bright at school - oh I passed alright, but no honours or A+, I'm just average Jo trying to make my way.
I guess that's why I like scrapping, cause I can do that. I love scrapping and making others happy - I should just stick with what I know and leave all the academic stuff to people who are smart.
Sorry - I'll post something more uplifting tomorrow, I promise.